Hmm. I was just importing a TV programme
into the computer (I wasn't even properly watching it, as it's done with the sound down), and it suddenly hit me - I think I'll always love Charlotte Coleman
, and I miss her desperately, and I regret that I never really had a chance to to tell her what she meant to me.
I don't think I've ever really acknowledged that before. I mean, I miss her, obviously, and I've sometimes felt that her death, happening when it did, almost certainly exacerbated the depression that had hit in when Jane left me, but I'm not sure I've ever really come out and said that I loved her, and still do in a way. And somehow being able to just actually say
that seems to be...helpful.